Joshua is in my heart, soul and mind every second of every day. He is my son, my third baby with Jose and our second baby boy. Joshua is in every tear that falls on my face and every painful beat of my heart. Joshua is also in my smile, my joy, and my hope. I have Joshua to thank for, for the heart expanding happiness that he brought to our family, if only for a short time. That is a happiness we will never feel again and never forget - the joy of having another baby! Joshua will always be our third born baby, our sweet son. This site is to help me celebrate Joshua's short life. My pregnancy with Joshua was going well, until I got into a car accident when I was about 12 weeks. Ever since then, I kept having complications after complications: a head concussion, developed hypertension, and so on. At about 14 weeks, I felt like my amniotic fluid was leaking, so the doctor checked. At first the test came back positive, then she said it could be false positive. Nothing else was done. 2 weeks later, the doctor informed me that my amnio was really low and was diagnosed with Oligohydramnios (low amnio fluid). They suggested doing an amniocentesis to rule out any genetic defects. The test came back normal, so they were puzzled as to why my fluid was low. They suggested terminating the pregnancy, because the chances of the baby surviving was low. Despite this information, I kept faith and left it up to the Lord. At every OB appointment, the doctor would tell me that the Joshua's heart beat was strong and that he's growing and developing despite the low amniotic fluid. My husband and I were thankful and continued to pray that God would perform some miracle and prove the doctors wrong...after all, our baby was defying the odds. Joshua was fighting to stay alive. On November 14, I went to my OB appt. and found out that Joshua had developed some fluid in his brain. I also informed the doctor that I felt like I was leaking again. When she checked she noticed that my bag had a slow leak...fearing that I would developed an infection, labor was induced at 27 weeks. I was in labor for only 6 1/2 hours. On November 15, 2007 at 12:28am Joshua was born sleeping. He was 10 inches and weighed 1 lbs and 8 ounces. My whole family was present at the birth of my baby. My husband and I were so devastated. We held our baby for hours, before they finally took him. We miss Joshua sooo much!